I go in the morning to see the orthopedist about my failing joints.
My mind is overfull of thoughts and ideas that I want to write, but I struggle to find the energy to bring them into cohesion. They remain scattered fragments like ice crystals blowing in the wind, whole novels worth if I could ever pin them down. In brief moments of calm they form shimmering mirages, only to shatter with the faintest breeze and the latest crises.
This cold is wearing. Everything is harder and takes longer, it is exhausting. I have been trying not to whine about it too much, but I can't wait for this weekend when the weather forecasters claim it will be 30 degrees. It will feel like the tropics.
There has been a lot of sunlight the last few days, but it too is harsh. A cold, unforgiving brilliance that blinds the eye and gives no warmth. Its faint promise is found only in its increasing length.
I would like to say that Spring will be here soon, but February is usually our worst month. Considering what this winter has been like so far, that is a daunting thought.
The light does grow longer though. I will try to hold to that.
The weather makes everything harder. Tomorrow will be a better day.
ReplyDeleteSending you some eucalyptus-perfumed warm summer air from Downunder. Hope you can feel and smell it and it brightens your spirit and helps tide you over to your own summer!
ReplyDeleteWe are enjoying the longer days, too. I know I am years far removed from below freezing temperatures because these last couple of weeks have been more than enough for me. I grew up in it but am glad I am mostly out of it. TN is the perfect place because you get all four seasons but don't have an abundance of winter. However the drawback is you do have a very HOT summer. The pics you took are beautiful even if the circumstances were not.
ReplyDeleteWishing you a nice warm up, gosh, to 30! Hope you are feeling better. I loved the video of little Ramsey waking up!
ReplyDeleteFebruary is generally our worst month with Blizzards and Ice Storms. I hate to see what will come then. March is notorious for having huge snowfalls, and snow melts.
ReplyDeleteI am worn down by this cold and the worry each day of traveling to work. Sigh
ooooo I loved your writing
ReplyDeletecould be that novel is coming soon
We too are in such cold....it is supposed to be 30 today, but I took the garbage out just now and it was a blasting cold wind that hit my face and you are right about the sun......bright but useless
lets hang in there...sorry about the migraine
good luck at the doctor. the weather will happen no matter...
ReplyDeleteBoy, have we been in the same boat with this weather. May hit 38 on Saturday and I think it will cause me to faint.
ReplyDeleteDidn't like to hear about your joint problems. I will send you a bottle of JointPerfect, what I use, if you would like it. The man who has this company has a PhD in nutrition and works with seniors and with the Olympic team.
ReplyDeleteWow that was beautifully written.
ReplyDeleteI can't say that I feel the same way, as our winter had been unusually mild, but I suspect that when summer comes we will be the one in record temps (highs) and everyone who spent the entire winter freezing to death will be enjoying lovely weather.
I know what you're talking about with this horrible weather and wind. I'm in the St. Louis area and we're having gale-force winds today. At least it's above freezing - finally. Our weather has been extreme since late fall, but nothing like yours. I must say I'm glad to be here instead of there. I used to get migraines, too, but, as I say, "I outgrew them". I hope you do the same. Joints are another matter, though. I hope you get relief. It's no fun at all to feel bad. Good luck.
ReplyDeleteHang in there. Can't last forever right?
ReplyDeleteKris, you have such a way with words -- could feel the poignancy in them. As always your landscape photos are breathtakingly beautiful. I wish you the strength to pull through this harsh winter and hopefully warmer days ahead. Take care, Vicki ~
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