Thursday, July 10, 2014

The Final Gift

I haven't had an update about Lakota in a while and that's mostly because we have been on a real roller coaster ride with him for the past couple of months.  He had been doing tremendously well this Spring and Riding Buddy was even able to ride him very lightly again.

Then he got an abscess, a very bad abscess.  We have no idea what caused it.  It blew out the back of his heel and he lost over half of the the sole and wall in his lateral heel, which amounted to half of his main support system in that foot.  He recovered, although never quite 100%.  It was growing in, but very, very slowly.

Despite this, he was nearly back to being riding sound again by the beginning of June.  Then the ground dried out for the first time in at least 18 months and became hard as granite.  Even though he was wearing padded boots or casts at all times, he was fairly uncomfortable on anything but the softest ground.

We noticed some other changes in Lakota this Spring as well.  He took a very long time to shed out.  He has been urinating copiously and with great frequency.  His feet have been getting sore and then better for no apparent reason.  He has been on a rigidly controlled, low-sugar diet, but still having recurring hoof problems.  All are symptoms of cushings disease.

I made some changes, gave him even more padded support, tried to get him up off his soles.  He was always better after I worked on his feet than he was before, my cardinal rule.  RB had a truckload of pea-gravel brought in to give him a soft, comfy area to hang out in and let his feet wear naturally.  He got better again.  He was moving around with the herd, doing well, nearly sound.

We've been paying close attention to a new product called Easyshoes and have a pair on order for him, they're on back-order.  I put a pair of them on Hawkeye (RB's other horse) about 10 days ago to see how they worked.  Good so far.  We thought they might be just the thing for Lakota and had hoped to try them out next week when they finally get here.

Two days ago, he came up severely lame with another abscess in the same foot that abscessed earlier.  I went down and packed the foot with Magic Cushion and an icthammol poultice.  Yesterday, he was a bit better.  I had a bad feeling about it though.  I was very worried about his other foot, what had always been his weaker foot.  It was going to have to take all his weight until the abscess broke.   I was concerned that the stress might cause him to founder on that foot despite his soft bed and added protections.  Unfortunately, I was right.

By this morning, Lakota had foundered severely on his "good" foot as well as being severely lame in the other.  His back feet had strong pulses and were also sore from trying to compensate.  He had spent most of the previous 12 hours laying down.  The vet was out this morning, gave him a thorough exam and we hashed out every possible avenue of treatment we could think of.  Lakota never got up for any of it.  There really was only one possible outcome.

We all made the final call unanimously and we gave Lakota the last, greatest, hardest gift there is to give.  The gift that only we can give.  The gift that might be the true mark of humanity.

Few horses get to live out their entire lives with a single loving, caring, conscientious owner.  Lakota was one of the lucky few who got to spend every day of his 16 years as if it were his birthday.  He has never known a hard word or a hungry night.

Lakota had a huge a vivid personality and the bond between him and RB was clear and palpable.  He leaves behind a very big hole in the world.

Goodbye Lakota, Mr. Crazy Blue Eyes, I know you have perfect feet now and are running like the wind.  Or playing soccer with a feed dish, that's far more likely.

23 comments:

  1. I am so sorry about Lakota. It is so hard to say goodbye to our beautiful animals.

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  2. I'm so sorry. He's a beauty, and it's something to feel good about that you were able to give him such a marvelous life filled with love and care. Animals always return that gift many times over.

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  3. Oh no. I read this and cried. Good for you doing the humane thing yet so sad for Lakota. May he meet up with Badger and Opal and exchange wonderful stories and run through ever green meadows.

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  4. Always a loving decision but always makes me cry to read about the loss of someone's dear animal friend. Sending a hug to Riding Buddy with condolences for you both.

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  5. Oh :'-(. My heart is breaking for you both.

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  6. I am so sorry! He was a lucky lucky horse to have you. Sweet Journeys Lakota!
    Hugs!

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  7. You all fought the good fight.

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  8. Oh Kris, that was beautiful. I can not possibly thank you enough for everything you did for him over the past few years. I miss him so much....

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    1. now I'm tearing up again. Leave it to Kris to write so beautifully and tenderly about the unavoidable event all animal owners must face.

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  9. I'm so very sorry for your loss! It is, indeed, the last and best gift we can give our animals---to help them over the rainbow bridge should the need arise. My vet has long said, "Don't let sentiment become neglect." Hugs to you and your family.

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  10. It's so hard to lose them and having to make the big decision adds another layer of emotion to the loss. You all did the right thing and I'm sure Lakota thanks you for it. He'll be waiting when you get there.
    Hugs to all.

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  11. Kris, although I only know you from this electronic connection and never knew Lakota, I sit here in disbelief that this is now the 3rd horse I know put down in a week. Two last weekend at my barn.
    I will hang on to your striking phrase about "the true mark of humanity" as I fear it may be coming soon for my boy, Natural.
    My heart goes out to you.

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  12. so very sorry. please pass along my sincere condolences to RB. take care.

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  13. I am so sorry to hear this. I can imagine it was hard to write this post, but thank you.

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  14. Oh you guys, so sorry to hear about this boy but such a lovely tribute and that picture is AWESOME. The best we can do for our critters is love them like you do yours, full of love and full tummies and then to let them go. Bless you.

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  15. By the fourth paragraph I was going "Oh no!" (I was too dumb to realise what the final gift was up to then)
    I'm so sorry. Sixteen is young, to me. Young to start Cushings, young to die. He should have had another ten years at least. Poor RB, poor you, poor Lakota. Yes he'll be missed. Even over here. I loved following his progress as you worked on his feet. I'm glad you & RB were there at the end.

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  16. We're so sad to hear about Lakota. Sometimes our best efforts still aren't enough. It's so hard to let them go...

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  17. I am so sorry. We always have to do what is best for our animals..they deserve it. BUT it is really really hard. Remember all the good times:)

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  18. What a nice tribute for a beautiful guy. Decisions made from the heart are the hardest. Sorry to hear of your shared loss.

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  19. I am so sorry for your loss but your gift to him to release him from the pain was the greatest gift of all. Memories will always be with you in your heart and mind. Rest in peace beautiful boy.

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  20. So sorry to hear about Lakota...I know how hard that decision was...my best wishes for you and RB, and all his animal pals who must miss him too...you gave him such a good life, and I bet he is grateful to not have to keep on suffering...

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