Tiresome

I didn't mean to be cryptic about the "retirement party".  Unfortunately, it does NOT mean that I get to retire, far from it.  It is just that the puppies like to play in the tire (which used to be a flower bed).  Now it is a dog bed, which Bess "retires" in whenever the weather is dry.

The puppies tire themselves out playing in the tire, then they retire to the tire so that they can rest up for more tiring play in the tire.  I could go on and on, but I know we will all get tired of it.  Unlike some, who generally remain tireless about the tire.

See what I mean?

OK, Moving on.....for those wondering what is going on with the latest job drama....that is terribly tiresome as well.

I really don't have a good answer.  The doctor wanted me to temporarily go back on full duty then have some tests done.  That was all supposed to happen in the past two weeks, but the holidays got in the way and there were no appointments available. Then, the doctor is going on vacation for two weeks and, when all is said and done, nothing will happen until the end of January.

In the mean time, just to make my life more fun, I am going back to the night shift starting tomorrow.  Temporarily? Permanently? I don't know. I know it's just in time for the ice storm moving this way Monday night.

There are murky, secretive stirrings quietly rumbling in the bowels of the bureaucracy, but I am being kept deliberately out of the loop. What it really comes down to is that I need a new job, which is easier said than done, especially around here.

Even if there were jobs, I am not sure what I would do.  People say, "do what you love, follow your dreams", but I am not sure what that is anymore.  When I was young, I wanted to be a vet, but my lungs failed me.  Repeated bouts of chronic pneumonia and the onset of severe allergies kept me out of vet school and left me with a set of lungs not up to the job.  What do you do when dreams have failed and you just have to make a living?

As for moving to some other place...the job issue still remains, although there may be more opportunities somewhere else.  There is really only one reason I stay here, God knows it is not a love of the climate.  It is that the few friends I have are here and won't leave.  Having already lost most of my family and friends, I am reluctant to lose more.  Stupidity, loyalty or common sense - I can't tell which.

So, here are a few things I've thought of trying to pursue...

• Freelance writing.  Not sure if anyone would actually pay for my writing and if they will, would it pay enough?
• Online tutoring.  I am actually a pretty good teacher with a heavy background in the sciences.  Maybe brush up on my Biology and Chemistry and see if I can make a living explaining the Kreb's Cycle?
• Medical coding and billing.  Not terribly exciting, but there are a lot of job openings in the field right now because of federally mandated changes in how it is done and a shortage of coders.  
• Start an Equine Nutrition Consulting business.  This would be interesting and maybe fun, but I think I might starve doing it since I haven't found anyone who actually wants to pay for such a thing.  

Anybody have any suggestions? I'm not looking to get rich, just to keep supporting myself and my herd without falling back across to the wrong side of the poverty line.  I've spent too much of my life there already.